Half year check

Half year check

Half of 2021 is almost done and what a year this one is turning out to be. Last year is feels like a party compared to this one; ironically, there was a lot of excitement when while ringing in this year. 

The first half has been a despondent one, with a lot of losses in one way or another. It brought with it a feeling of continuous hopelessness and void. Again, people were dying, there was confusion and fear of the pandemic which felt worse than the previous year… in spite of experiencing it once before, the swiftness at which the second wave came, and the lack of preparedness crippled the healthcare systems and almost brought it to it’s knees. And this time it felt closer, more real, and scarier than before. After a couple of months, slowly things started getting better. We are still not out of it, and are in constant gloom of an impending third wave. Hopefully the pace of vaccination will prove to be a deterrent and reduce the severity of this one. 

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Another quarter down!

Another quarter down!

Travelling for work is something new that I have started recently, and as much as I like to travel, work trips are nothing like taking a holiday…more so, when you are stuck with colleagues you are not fond of! This is the time, when I try to bury myself in work so that the days go faster. So, the result is that it feels like being a Hamster on a running wheel. The routine is usually eat-work-sleep; repeat!

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The joy of small things

The joy of small things

It’s funny how the smallest of things can sometimes bring you a truckload of happiness. Yesterday, I was driving back from work, preparing myself for a long ride back since I had to pick up a few things on the way.. and what I saw in front of me had me smiling for a major part of the journey.

Looking around while driving, a sudden movement near the roof of the car in front of me caught my attention. Curious, I started paying more attention to this particular one. It was a dark blue Hyundai Verna. And, to my amusement, as I continued watching it, a head popped out the sun roof ! and within a minute, another small head popped up beside it.

So, in the middle of all that chaotic traffic, two kids were hanging out the sun roof of their car, having the time of their lives, waving their hands around, making faces at people passing by and generally have a blast! The elder one was around 7 and the younger one must have been couple of years younger than her.  The cutest bit was, how she held her brother protectively to make sure he was safe.

It was pure joy to watch them like that, so much innocence, happy in their own world; It was not just me, they brought smiles to a lot of people on the road J. Even after they had gone their way, I couldn’t help smiling just thinking about them, in fact, I am smiling as I am writing this just thinking about them!

If only we could maintain some of the simplicity we have as kids, life would be much simpler wouldn’t it. Sometimes I do seriously think they are a lot more mature than us adults, who find reasons to complain, just about everything!

After a long day of work though, seeing something like this is definitely the highlight of the day. And for all the happiness that they unknowingly spread around, I hope wherever they are now, the kids have a happy childhood and do not grow up too soon 😉

Photo by Sander Weeteling on Unsplash

The spark in the dark

The spark in the dark

What is Love? I hadn’t really thought about it in a long time. Then, just the other day, as I was driving home from work I was listening to a talk show on the radio where the discussion was around emotions and people can feel / not feel them. It was quite an interesting one. Hearing this discussion kind of sent me down memory lane to think about my own story..

My earliest introduction to love was probably when I was around 11 – 12 years, thanks to the few romantic comedies I was allowed to watch; or perhaps even younger because of Fairy Tales (where all stories have a happy ending) Oh! They filled my head with a lot of fanciful ideas about love.. I guess, I was more in love with the idea of falling in love than realising the implications it came with.

As I grew up, multiple heart breaks later, somewhere my faith and ideas started wavering before they flickered off fully; to the extent I wasn’t even sure I felt anything anymore. Then, things changed again after I met my husband!

In the last four years I found out it is possible for a person with a whole heart to heal a person with a cracked heart. The process may be slightly slow, but happen, it does. To me, love has taken a new meaning now. I have begun to believe that it is not a single emotion, but, a tangled web of many emotions. Or rather, if I may put it like that, it stirs up a lot of emotions in you.

It brings:

Joy – when you are together

Sadness – the time you spend apart on travel

Pure joy – meeting after ages

Anger – sometimes driving the other person mad is also a part of the package (a.k.a. quirks / other mechanisms)

Wonder – that you are capable of being unconditionally loved by somebody, while not realising that you deserve it

It is liberating, being with him, for I can be myself; do the silly things that I want to do, tell him something I did even though that may not have been the brightest / smartest thing I have done… nothing beats looking into those deep brown eyes. I could go on doing it for hours together! The touch of his hands still give me goose bumps.

As much as we are used to it, staying apart is painful every single time. It feels like the better part of you is missing. It’s like a hollow shadow is following you around. When we do end up getting back home together, it’s quite the party 😉

As is typical of him, when he’s at home, I am getting a lot of love in the form of gentle intermittent prodding to see if I am done or just some itty bitty information on what happened during the day. I love it, the sound of his voice, the way he smells, even his imperfections feel perfect.

So, in my opinion, I feel love is a vast ocean of emotions and expressions that cannot be defined. It can only be felt! Now that I am used to it, I would never trade it for anything else; for this is what reminds me that I have a heart, one that is beating. Sometimes, the only trigger you need is a person to tell or show you you can be loved, and I cannot think of any emotion right now that could be stronger than this one!

Till next time, cheers!

One more year down

One more year down

Another year is ending..a new one is fast approaching. As the year ends, you can’t help but look back on the events that unfolded in the past year.

It has been a tough one. A year that seemed bent on reminding you that life is short; time goes by and there is absolutely nothing you can do about it except live it! The only thing in your control is what you do with it.

The first half just whizzed by in the most unexpected way. Took quite sometime for it to settle down. As the months progressed, things slowly started falling into place and getting better. It’s surprising how you can manage to keep calm in the most unexpected situations. 

The year had it’s pleasant parts as well. There was the long awaited trip to Australia. It did do a lot of good. The thing I love about travelling is how it gives you perspective.  A new look at an old thing; how people lead different lives and yet want the same thing.  We all search for the same thing don’t we.. Love; Hope; Joy; Success and most importantly, Peace – within us, around us.

As I was driving around with my husband today, I was thinking of all the things I would like to do next year. And it’s quite a lot. But working on it one by one, I know I will get there. 🙂
Here’s bidding adieu to this year with this beautiful quote:

 Don’t wait for life to get easier, simpler, better.

Life will always be complicated.

Learn to be happy right now.

Otherwise you’ll run out of time.

                                    – tinnybuddha.com

Now is all we have

Now is all we have

“Life is an exam where the syllabus is unknown and the question papers are not set”

I came across this passage written by an author today and I could not help but think to myself how true it was. Just the other day, I met one of my closest friend – Snehal, and what she told me only strengthened my thoughts about how scary and unpredictable life is.

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Life’s intricacies

Life’s intricacies

Today has been one of those days – where you know a new chapter is opening up in your life and there’s nothing you can do about it except accept it and go along with the flow. It may not be anything big; but still you need time to get used to it. 

Relationships can be so fragile – between siblings; couples; or even friends for that matter. Nothing tests it more than staying together. This can make or break families; it brings out the best in some people while the worst in others.

 Living in a joint family can either be a pleasant dream or an absolute nightmare depending on how the rest of the members are…and sometimes, even when things are going good, you need to separate and live apart to save the future of relationships; for things get complicated when siblings get married and have families of their own.

 One day or another the question of breaking up and living in individual houses will come up; the only question is whether it will happen amicably or after a lot of unpleasantness. It is always better to part ways amicably; for then the relations are saved – and at the end of the day, you have two houses to hang out at right! But, of course, the time when the other family has to move out can be slightly heart breaking. After all, by staying together, so much would’ve been shared with each other.

 So, with all these thoughts going on in my head, I was feeling slightly under the weather. That is when I came across this lovely forward (pic below)

 

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It is neither great nor uncommon. Those are just simple word. And yet, something about it calmed me and I felt it made a lot of sense. I guess, at that point I just needed to be reminded of it. After all, nothing in life is static right. The only thing constant is change. We need to adapt ourselves to be that way as well. That way, we’ll be at peace with ourselves and those around us.

 

 

All In a Day’s work

All In a Day’s work

Through out childhood, I have had various aspirations about what I want to be when I grow up. It varied from wanting to be a Teacher ; a Lawyer; an Engineer; a Journalist and what not; Finally, when the time came to pick one, Chartered Accountancy (CA – Indian equivalent of CPA) it was. 

Leaving aside the struggles of clearing it, fast forward to when I qualified and finally landed a job. Oh! it was like everything I had imagined. What had me most excited was how I could finally leave home and start living on my own. 

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